I honestly believe all First Times in our lives consists of the very concentrated feeling of what we had that day. Doesn’t matter if it’s our first day at a new job, our first interview or our first time being in love. All of it was adrenaline controlled and slipping an inch would cost us our dear good memory for the rest of our lives.
We have a lot of First Times. And the first time you did something out of ordinary, you are bound to remember it. Good or bad. Do you think that is a good thing? Doing such thing the first time and expecting the best but bear in your mind sometimes things doesn’t go the way you planned and you accidentally did something you’re not supposed to. And you’re scarred for life.
I have to remind myself that I am a better person and I will not be judge for such mistake. I am worth million times over than thumb marks on the door or folded paper on the shelves. I am sure that everyone deserves somebody to love. Though your first try won’t be as impressive as everybody else’s, you tried. However big your crush, and however broken your heart when he told you he doesn’t feel the same way, please do not give up. Somebody somewhere will say yes.
All I could think is this is not the end.